I'm Wrapped in a heated blanket
Stuck on is the tens machine
Rocking a hot patch and eau du Tiger Balm
Fetching supports on both wrists and knees
My eyes sore... swollen and bloodshot
Perfectly matching my burning flushed cheeks
Industrial headphones and sunglasses on
Trying but failing miserably to follow the TV
Head splitting under an ice-pack
My face firmly planted in front of the fan
It's whirling echoes my relentless reeling mind
Of the thousands of jobs... still to be done
My body's skin tinged an attractive bruised-blue
Barely opaque... dry and insanly itchy
I can't remember when I last felt the breeze or the warmth of the sun
Or looked human... without the zombie-stare and hair all greasy
My dreams taunt me with a life and friends I once had
I'm now more active in my sleep than in reality
I've become a prisoner within my own dysfunctional body
I just want to unzip myself... step out and be free!!!
It's hard to describe what M.E. does to your soul
Even loved ones surmise you're "depressed or lazy"
Daily fighting to take back... even a little control
Thoughts of futility and guilt... slowly sending me crazy
I've hardly a social life worth mentioning
As endless acute pain... has taken its toll
My hours, days and years tick by wasted and empty
Left today bed-bound... as again I've hit M.E.'s unyielding... brick wall!!!
© Debbie Razey 2016 - Violet Moon Razey